i know, right? i know what you're thinking:
"uh-oh..."
well, there are two reasons i've been doing all of this thinking:
1) i just graduated from college. freak! that's five years all summed up on a piece of paper with my name on it and a stamp that makes it look all official-like - and i haven't even seen it yet! i had it mailed to my parents because i had no idea where i'd be living this summer. no idea where life would take me... but that's beside the point... kinda... the point here is: five years. i wish i remembered every, every minute of it. its times like this that i want to slap myself silly for being terrible at keeping a journal. there are so many experiences, now only memories, that brought me to where i am now. whether its classes, relationships, jobs, teams, roommates, friends... they all worked together to give me some of the best years of my life. and...
2) those five years began five years ago. this week. exactly. its kinda trippy, actually... summer term 2007. dang. (for those of you that truly know me, you know i have a weird way of remembering dates and anniversaries of things. it probably correlates with my obsession with planners, haha...)
so.
to make up for all of those years that i never kept a journal and all i have left are my planners with 'detailed notes' of things... and random notes, cards, pictures, and movie ticket stubs... i'm hoping to piece those all together. it'll be a crazy trip down memory lane... but i'm excited. excited to look back. see where i was, where i am now, and who i've become.
also, because of this, i'll be making my blog private... not that any of you really read it anyway, haha. (...probably because i never really write anything on here either!) but. i'm just going to be writing a lot of personal things here in the next few days... weeks... months... as i go through all of everything from the last five years. this blog will be my catch-up journal. eventually i may make it public again, but by then, there will be so much boring stuff here for you to read, that you won't read it all. ha. ;)
i wish i could post a picture or something of my favorite college memory but... that's impossible. so... this is about all i can put up right now...
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| i dunno about you, but it appears i'm the only one in this picture excited to graduate... |
this is a picture that my dad snapped during graduation, right before i walked across a stage in a smelly gym to receive my diploma. (you know, that piece of paper with an official looking stamp on it that represents five years of my life...) at this particular moment though, we were asked to find our parents, and thank them for all that they had done for us through ... everything. i, naturally, was brought to tears. because my parents were - and have always - been there for me. not just after those first two hell-ish weeks of summer term... not those multiple times that i was so ready to never go back to byu... but literally always. it makes me so sad to know that there is no way that i can really repay them for all that they have done for me. i only hope that i can take those lessons taught and the aaaalllllllll the love given and give the same to my children and others around me. i owe my parents everything.
(hey, maybe that's why i had my diploma mailed to them and not me...?)
